I haven't written about remote viewing here in a while.
The simple reason is this: I totally suck at it right now.
I've been having such a tough time lately. I do sessions that either have minor contact or none at all. One after the other they're just weak-sauce sessions. Sometimes I get the feeling that I'm devolving haha.
This has happened before. A bit over a year ago I was cruising along, viewing daily with half-decent results when all of the sudden it was like I hit a pit of quick sand. The harder I tried to break out of it, the deeper I sunk. For nearly a month and a half strait – every. session. sucked. every. day. Not to say I didn't have observable target contact here and there but accurate data was minimal and low-level at best. As where before I was getting used to the feeling of progress, learning new things all the time and having some good results on paper.
The angst became so great that the episode earned it's own moniker:
"The Dark Night of Psi" (cue scary organ music).
I couldn't hit the broadside of a barn with a bowling ball. But, I powered through it and eventually the streak broke with one of the cooler session experiences I've ever had, and a string of decency thereafter. Not a second too soon either. I didn't fancy going prematurely bald for tearing all my hair out. It's just so frustrating because you know you can do better. You've the past sessions to prove it. So why the hell isn't it working any more? Racking your brain over anything and everything that might be the culprit does little good.
Some viewers say that when you start to have trouble it's a good time to take a break. That's awesome if it works for them but personally I always seem to come back from a break feeling twice as incompetent as I did before it. Am I alone on this one? Maybe.
It appears the Dark Night of Psi (scary music) has returned. Shrouding my soul in blackness. Smiting me from the shadows! Destroying Hope and all that is sacred! Chewing a path of destruction through eternity and…….
Ahem… Sorry about that. You can tell it's a sore subject. Anyway, my viewing has been consistently pitiful for a nearly two months. I hate to whine but it's hard as hell to keep the right frame of mind when every session starts to feel like an exercise in futility before you even start. I know, poor me. I pick one of the most mentally challenging pursuits a person can, and then I bitch because it's hard. Heh.
Not sure what causes these long 'dry spells.' I think it's probably just an exaggerated bell of the learning curve. A
valley canyon that precedes the next higher peak. Maybe it's worse for some than others. I'm not sure it's any easier the second time around and it probably won't be on the third either. C'est la vi. All there is is to keep at it. At least I'm lucky enough to have a girlfriend who pretends to never tire of listening to me belly-ache about it.
The last time I hit this wall, a friend of mine (and a more experienced viewer than I) gave me this advice:
"… hang in there. This too will pass, as they say. No matter what the cause is, you were doing great before so you know that you can do great again, right? The cause or source of your recent missing WILL pass. But YOU WON'T PASS. …Even if you take no steps to try to correct the problem, the problem will STILL eventually either go away or will solve itself (possibly from your subconscious figuring out a way around it while, from your conscious perspective, you have just kept plugging away)."
Leave it to good friends to make the night seem a little less dark.